AT THE MOMENT

I am trying to:

1) Get rid of this sore&ichy throat/cough/stuffy nose/sneezy thing going on with me by downing shots of Buckley's and mug's of hot water + lemon + honey
2) Do Bio like my life depends on it
3) Keep up in school, even though it feels like I haven't learned a thing this semester
4) Keep in touch with everyone and make the most of it
5) Get over the fact that my "debut" is no longer possible
6) Make peace and accept that "you can't change people, you can only change yourself. All you can do is make peace with yourself, and just say sorry, even though you don't even know what you're saying sorry for"
7) Practise driving as much as I can.. Must. Get. Licence.
8) Cut down on my spending (which has actually been working out pretty well, since I haven't left my house in a good two weeks.)
9) Continue living in a healthy environment (mentally, physically, emotionally)
10) Make the most of the time with my girls

BATTLE OF THE SLUTS

Of course there are a lot of things that I'm going to miss in Surrey, but Kwantlen is definitely one of them. Even though I've known these fools for what seems like forever, closeness has only come now, and it really dosn't seem fair.

THE SUNSHINE AFTER THE RAIN

Today has been the most beautiful day that Vancouver has seen in a while. When the weather is nice, I feel like someones telling me that things are going to get brighter, warmer, and with new scenery.

I'M TIRED

And I have realized that no amount of sleep can cure that.

INSPIRATION

About a year ago, I wrote a poem about someone very special. An unexpected inspiration of mine that made me realize the simplicity underneath the complexity. Now that she is more in my life than ever, it may be the factor that will make things harder later on. Hopefully she can one day understand that I tried my best, and that I'll always be there.

Ninang
Ninang is the name she screams
As she sees my face and runs toward me
At five-years-old, innocence has its say
And shows me the wold in a whole other way
Questions all day, make my head spin
Especially when the complexity of life kicks in
There are so many times that I don't know what to say
But those big eyes of trust provide insight to the clearness of day

AS THE LETTERS KEEP COMING

The decisions become easier to make. Maybe I really do need a change in scenery.

DRIVING THROUGH A PARKING LOT

Is harder then driving through the street. Even though it's slower, it's also tighter, there are not as many rules, and people in parking lots take advantage of that.

And I hate being taken advantage of.

DECIDING WHERE TO GO

That's all that's left for me, the determining factor.

I FEEL MOVED

Not only have I moved residences, but I just feel moved by people in general. I tend to forget how many people are on my side.