DIFFERENCES PART II

Christmas as always been a fantastic time for me since I was a little kid. You don't realize how much something means to you until things change, which has been the complete story of my life these past few days. I've been trying so hard to keep things moderate, keep things stable. Stability just isn't there for me right now. I never realized it before, but I think this is honestly the hardest part, the highest hill from the lowest valley. I'm trying, I really am. But it's just hard to get up a snowy hill when you're still using all-season tires. So how is it that I can just stick it out? Just suck it up and go with the flow. If you slip, you slip. But even if you break your leg, you still get up eventually, no matter how much help you get. And right now, I need all the help I can get. Thanks for listening.

During times like this, I can't help but wish you were still here.

INSPIRATION THROUGH HIDDEN THOUGHTS

Funny how the human mind works. People think about so many things but when you think about it, only about 15% are said outloud. It happens for different reasons for every thought. Like, you wouldn't ask the random lady at the mall why shes wearing sunglasses or go up to some guy and run your hands through their hair cause you want to know what it feels like. Some things just don't make sense, and then there are some that you just want to keep to yourself. But isn't it the best feeling when someone tells you something positive that they feel about you? Especially when its from the past, it's always great to hear stuff like that. There arn't many times in your life where people tell you how much you have impacted their life. This year I've been fortunate enough to hear a lot of peoples thoughts about me. But as I said, when something was done so long ago it's so touching to finally see it for yourself, and see yourself through their eyes. It's not only flattering, but inspiring. There really is nothing more inspirational than realizing that you inspire someone. Thank you for you're beautiful words, even though I didn't cry unlike the rest of your readers, I'd have to say that I appreciate it the most. Thank you for making things just a tad bit easier.

If only I could read people's thoughts, but there's no way they can handle mine.

DIFFERENCES

Christmas has always been a fantastic time for me since I was a little kid. I have so many stories of the times I went Christmas shopping, the times that I got pictures taken with Santa at the mall, decorating my house, baking cookies and all that fun stuff. I would always get what I wanted from "Santa" and always found it hidden sometime before. Honestly the only thing that I looked forward to in December was Christmas, and I have now say that that's not the only thing to look forward to. This December is turning out pretty good, and of course I'm having a great time, but as pointed out so many times these past few weeks "it's just not the same" for me. It's different, but I actually like it.

I think I can get used to this.

IT'S THE MOST WONDERFUL TIME OF THE YEAR

It's my first post of December and you know what that means, the holidays are just around the corner! So here I am in my fully decked out house, enjoying the artificial heat in none other than my room, while preparing for my last week of classes. Can you believe it? First week of December and I'm done already! Oh the joy of post-secondary.. This semester has been pretty fantastic (other than chem) and yesterday in English it donned on everyone that it was the last week and it was actually pretty sad.. I've never loved a random class so much, I don't know what it is, but I'm always blessed with a fantastic english class which always seems to make my course load. But anyways, it's the last week with everyone during their normal times at the infamous "g spot", and the last week being "one of the guys" for 2008. After this week, finals, and then endless holiday fun! All I need to do is finish Christmas shopping and I'm set! Parties, Christmas, Calgary, New years. This is going to be a fabulous December!