LAST DANCE

Thank you for finally ruining your last chance at fixing what we once had.

Thats it. I'm done trying.

Now you can finally get what you deserve.

JUST WHEN I THOUGHT IT WAS PERFECT

It gets fucked up again and again.

It all falls down.

IF EXCITEMENT COULD KILL

My birthdays are always something I look forward to, since I usually plan something elaborate and crazy, and this years no different. Nineteen, legality, fantastic food, great friends, my amazing boyfriend. My birthday just can't get any better. It may not be something I dreamt about at five years old, but nineteen is nineteen, and thats something definitely worth celebrating. So bring on the week, bring on the suitcases, bring on the bottles. Theres only one week till we get to party all niight loong.

I DON'T UNDERSTAND,

Why all the negativity? But then again when I think in the same context, all I think is negativity.

THERE ARE SOME THINGS

That I just like to do on my own, it's just the only child in me.

EVERYWHERE I GO

Everything I see, I can't help to see you there with me.

RIGHT HERE

Seriously, why try and change a good thing. Right? So why not just stick to the plan and stay right here.

Sounds good to me.

IF YOU WERE FALLING,

Then I would catch you. Simple as that.

MAYBE

Maybe I just need to catch up.. Or maybe people just need slow down. Either way, I'm pretty slow and I need to work on my cardio.

SEEMINGLY SIMPLE, YET POSTIVELY COMPLEX

Why is it that I keep trying to bring in change when I've finally gotten settled?

SOMETIMES

Sometimes I wish that there was no such thing as "falling out".

AS ALWAYS, I AM LATE

So it's been twelve days since the new year started, three weeks since Christmas, and I haven't made a post. It's not that I don't have much to say, I have a lot to say, as always. But it's just been busy.

At the time, Christmas wasn't what it always is, which was highly expected. The thing is though, right now when i think of my past few weeks, my mind dosn't even remember Christmas. It's weird, it's like i blocked Christmas and the days before it from my mind. I love Christmas, but as I've said before, it's hard to do something the way you've always done it with something major missing. Hopefully next year plans come through and I can finally change Christmas for the better.

After Christmas is another story. Boxing day I started my treck from endless snow to eternal coldness, which let me tell you, was not an easy one. After having two cancelled flights, staying on the tarmack for 5 hours, and having no luggage for 4 days, it was actually worth it. I'm normally an impatient person, I have things not going smoothly. I'm pretty organized when it comes to what I really want. But this time, all I could think of was "I just need to get there", and somehow patience just appeared. So after a lot of determination, and a lot of patience, I finally arrived to Calgary and had a fantastic end of the past year, and beginning of the present year.

A lot can happen in a month, and this has definitely been a good month. It really has been a fantastic start to the year. Other than that, my life's just been chill. And thats the theme for the year, following the year of pure and utter chaos, just chill.